Y s L 3 C i A

so i went into the bookstore today..

i know… baaaaaaaaaad idea.

well, you can be proud to know that i didn’t purchase a single book.

well, i’m quite proud of that fact.

i did buy a Marie Claire magazine though.

not so proud moment.

anyway, so i pass the cashier the payment and then realised something.

i haven’t done any shopping in a while weiii..

i realise this because, i haven’t had to tell any cashiers that i don’t need a plastic bag in ages weiii…

well, at least, i THINK i haven’t done any shopping in ages…

let me go back and ponder.

i’m seriously very touched weii.. 

even after all my self-absorbedness these past few months, the people who love me still love me.. 

*feels a tear forming* 

i was gonna post a Wishlist on my blog.. 

because ’tis the season to be wishing.. 

usually my Wishlist is full of things i don’t expect to receive.. 

so i was compiling in my head all the stuff i’ve been wanting these past few months.. 

and then i realised.. 

i am quite loved in that i was told i’d be getting 2 of the items on my wishlist this year:

the twilight calendar; 

and topaz hazel contact lenses. 

don’t worry, you girls didn’t promise it to me, and i won’t hold it against you.. 

what with the recession, some of us may have to declare bankruptcy (although, i seriously hope not).. 

but it’s the thought that counts =) 

i feel so loved. 

i love you girls to the max lah! 

max max max lah!

Broken she
Has her arms twisted
Is pointing at me
I’ll stand, but I ain’t coming
Over as she
She spoke with a voice
That struck at the sky
She said, “come on over
Bittersweet
I’ll wrap you in my arms”
And She said, “Let me sign”
“Let me sign”

i pride myself at being a Twilight Junkie. 

(OH NO, ANOTHER TWILIGHT POST) 

twilight is, like, a drug to me. 

my own personal brand of heroin. 

an addiction. 

a habit hard to kick (not that i’ve been trying too hard to kick). 

i just had a twilight OD moment. 

so i was watching all those videos i downloaded from everglowmedia.net / edwardandbella.net right… and then i found one that was of RPattz next movie Little Ashes. he plays the lead, Salvador Dali, a gay Spanish painter. i saw nudity so i’m guessing it’ll be R-rated. 

Anyway, my twilight moment came when the video ended and i asked myself “wasn’t that disturbing?” to which i replied (myself) “no. zero weirdness. the guys look great together” 

*_* 

Prior to Nov 27th, i insisted i wanted both the twilight soundtrack and the twilight score. After watching the movie, i wasn’t too keen on the score anymore. And had you asked me before 2:30pm Dec 04th, my answer would have remained the same. But, if you ask me now, after 4:30pm Dec 04th, i’m back to square one and will insist on both again. 

Track Listing: 

1. How Would I Die
2. Who Are They?
3. Treaty
4. Phascination Phase
5. Humans Are Predators Too
6. I Dreamt of Edward
7. I Know What You Are
8. The Most Dangerous Predator
9. The Skin Of A Killer
10. The Lion Fell In Love With A Lamb
11. Complications
12. Dinner With His Family
13. I Would Be The Meal
14. Bella’s Lullaby
15. Nomads
16. Stuck Here Like Mom
17. Bella Is Part Of The Family
18. Tracking
19. In Place Of Someone You Love
20. Showdown In The Ballet Studio
21. Edward At Her Bed

Lest you have been living in a cave, you oughta know by now that i am a massive twilighter. i was asked if i’ve ever been this obsessed before, i thought about it and after much thought, i conclude no. my memory of those obsessions do not come even close to my present state of frenzy. Ben Barnes aka Prince Caspian, Steven Strait aka D’leh, Gossip Girl, Grey’s Anatomy, Shayne Ward, The Click Five, Il Divo, nope, all of them combined come nowhere close to my current TWILIGHT fanaticism. 

I understand that the books in the twilight series are each very thick, so a lot of scenes will have to be cut to fit into the movie. and i applaud the twilight movie for doing their best to fit everything they could. many twilighters and anti-twilighters have been making lists of how the movie differed from the book, what scenes they wanted in the movie, what scenes they didn’t like in the movie, blahblahblah. in my eyes, they left out nothing key. period. 

So… after going through so many twilight-related lists and wishlists, i decided to come up with one of my own. Well, initially i thought there was a very long list but when i put it to paper, turns out it’s really short and sweet. =) 

new moon will start filming in March 2009 and is scheduled to be released in 2010. i’ll be 23 by then, but no matter. age is but a number, i am still a fangirl at heart. looks like those of you who were looking forward to my angry rants will have to wait a long time. 

This is my new moon wishlist. these are things, besides the obvious Wolves and Volturi, that make up new moon in my opinion. i know i said i understand them having to cut scenes from the twilight book, but if they leave these out of the new moon movie, i may scream BLOODY MURDER… 

1. Grandma Marie. 

2. hearing Edward’s voice. 

3. Quil and Embry meet Bella. 

4. the motor bikes. 

5. cliff diving. 

6. “one condition - Marry Me First”. 

these cannot be left out. can not! 

p/s: apologies that the sentences aren’t sewn together properly. i’m having a hard time thinking which goes first.

sorry mates… but if you’re gonna read my blog, you’ve gotta put up with what i choose to blog… 

i can’t bring myself to write a review… can’t… 

so in true obsessed-twilighter style, i’m just gonna quote… 

*WARNING: MOVIE SPOILER ALERT* 

*CARTER BURWELL - How Would I Die*

“i’d miss my loving, erratic, hair-brained mother..” 

*BLACK GHOSTS - Full Moon* 

“i’m Jacob, we used to make mudpies together”

“are they always like this?” - “it gets worse with old age” 

Jacob gets hit by truck door. 

“i’m Eric, the eyes and ears of this place… if you need anything, tour guide, lunch date, shoulder to cry on” - “i’m more the suffer in silence type” 

Mike and Jessica introduced. 

*CARTER BURWELL - Who Are They?*

“guess i’ll just have to endure it” 

“hi i’m Edward Cullen, you’re Bella?” 

“like i said” 

“it’s the fluorescence” 

*COLLECTIVE SOUL - Tremble for my beloved* 

“you stopped the van.. you pushed it with your hand..” - “yeah well, no one’s gonna believe you” 

*PARAMORE - I Caught Myself* 

*ROB PATTINSON - Never Think* 

“i tell you i can read people’s minds, and you ask if there’s something wrong with you” 

*BLUE FOUNDATION - Eyes On Fire* 

*CARTER BURWELL - The Skin of a Killer*

“i’m the world’s best predator… everything about me pulls you in… my voice, my face, even my smell… as if i need any of that” 

“you’re like a drug to me… my own personal brand of heroin” 

*MUTEMATH - Spotlight (Twilight Mix)*

“oh. you do smell good”

*CARTER BURWELL - Bella’s Lullaby*

Bella tells Charlie that Edward wants to meet him. 

“she thinks we cheeeeeeat” 

“i’m the one with the wicked curve ball” - “oh, i think we can handle that”

*MUSE - Supermassive Black Hole* 

*ROB PATTINSON - Let Me Sign*

*PERRY FARRELL - Go All The Way* 

*IRON & WINE - Flightless Bird, American Mouth* 

*RADIOHEAD - 15 Step*

*LINKIN PARK - Leave Out All The Rest* 

*PARAMORE - Decode*

no, not food poisoning.. 

homesick: when you miss home so much, you can fall sick. 

foodsick: when you miss food so much, you can fall sick. 

i’ve been having a lot of food cravings of late. my sense of time no longer exists so i cannot point out if it was this week or last week. 

with the ample food selection available in the Klang Valley, i still find that i miss these: 

1. Jln Bunga Simpur’s Cucur. Prawns, Ubi, Tofu. it’s not what she cucurs, it’s her sauce! it’s so yummy, it’s addictive!  

2. Ideal’s Cheesy Fries. i have not found anywhere else that uses that same cheese powder. and Ideal Chicken + Rice is also worth craving, the smell of the juicy chicken, the garlic rice… 

3. Sugarbun’s Chicken. they aren’t fried, they aren’t roasted. they’re broasted. tell me where else cooks chicken like that, PLEASE?? 

4. Jollibee’s Double Cheese Fries and Double Joy with Rice. actually, i’d be able to find these at any Jollibee. problem is, i don’t think there are any Jollibees on this side of the South China Sea. 

5. Jln Pretty’s Bubble Tea. they seem so much tastier, with a better variety, and so much cheaper than they do here… 

6. Buttermilk Bun. seriously, they are non-existent here. are they that fattening? i don’t care! 

7. Ribbonette’s Chocolate Fudge cake. they are deeeeeevine! 

… 

other than that, i seriously want to cook. Fried Rice! Indomie! Indomie with Ham and Egg! Soggy Maggi Mee! Cheese Omelette! Ham and Cheese Omelette! Potato Hotpot! Oreo Cheesecake! Buttermilk Prawns! and that’s only what i CAN cook.. when i get the chance, i’m telling you, i’m gonna throw ALL my favourite ingredients into the pot/pan and what comes out will be absolutely DEEEEEVINE!! *drool* 

… 

actually, i think foodsickness is just an excuse.. because really, i’m homesick..

it’s been almost a month from my last post. 

i wasn’t away. i was right here. 

my excuse? 

a) i was preoccupied. with twilight my social life. 

b) there was nothing to blog about other than twilight which would have gotten me an intervention. 

c) i couldn’t decide which of the four topics in my head was more pressing and needed blogging. and i didn’t have any idea how to link them. and i didn’t want an overly lengthy post. 

finally decided on ‘define pretty’. 

i challenge you to define the word pretty. 

not define it to me, but just define it. to yourself. 

personally, i detest “pretty”. i never realised this until this year though. i found this out when i was assigned to a group and the group was supposed to come up with a presentation. not all wanted to get a head start so the few of us who did, got together to discuss some ideas. when that was done, and it was past midnight, we headed off to bed satisfied with what we had discussed, agreed and came up with. i compiled the ideas, put them to paper and pitched the/our presentation idea to the whole group the next day. i was open to ideas, everyone’s, honest! but then this bimbo gave her interpretation of the topic we were given and it took me all the patience in the world to explain the topic correctly to her. then she decides that she has an idea and pitches it while i’m pitching mine.. after i got over the fact that no one was listening to me anymore because she is prettier, i attempt to be open, and not stereotype her bimboticness, and listen. but the bimbo came up with the most cliche idea. i tried to argue this but NO ONE listened to me. NO ONE!! eventually they opened the idea for discussion but i defiantly, blatantly, vehemently (i see my years of reading is biting me in the ass again) REFUSED to participate in the discussion. 

Defiant: Marked by defiance; boldly resisting. 

Blatant: Totally or offensively conspicuous or obtrusive. 

Vehement: Characterized by forcefulness of expression or intensity of emotion or conviction; fervid. 

*runs off to sign up for Anger Management* 

anyway, here are my two cents’ worth that i think you should take into consideration. 

beauty is in the eye of the beholder. this means that beauty varies from one person to another. you may think straight hair is pretty, he might think that wavy hair is pretty, she might think that curly hair is pretty. in my opinion, go bald! you may think blonde is pretty, he might think that redhead is pretty, she might think that brunette is pretty. in my opinion, go blue! 

seriously now, if i could chop of my hair, i would. i wouldn’t colour it though. why leh? because everyone is colouring theirs so i’ll be like the only person left with jet black hair. awesome, no? 

fair does not equal pretty. how can you say fair constitutes pretty? i’d like to tan all those fair people and then let you see whether they are genuinely pretty. in order to judge fairly, they must be on equal footing mah. so either tan all the fair skinned, or fairen all the tanned skinned. but since pretty is biased to fairness, make everyone tanned loh. getting back on track, how can you say they’re pretty merely because they are fair skinned? HOWW??… i am not saying that fair people are not pretty. i’m saying that if you say she’s pretty because she’s fair, i will punch you till kingdom come. and i assure you, i have enough pent up anger to do it. 

skinny does not equal pretty. oh puhr-leese! and if you argue that mathematical equation, i’ll just add “yah.. and flat-chested is sexy”. 

sunblock. keep me fair? puhr-leese! i only use it to keep away harmful UV rays. if you keep telling me i will get blemishes and freckles and pigmentations, rest assured i will not use it. because according to me, freckles are pretty! so stop telling me useless mumbo jumbo so that i can protect my skin! 

big eyes. long lashes. small nose. thick, pouty lips. straight white teeth. pretty? ultimately, prettiness is overrated. i value brains and talent more. 

if you’re pretty, but have no opinions of your own, worthless. 

if you’re pretty, but have no knowledge of anything, worthless. 

if you’re pretty, but have no talent, worthless. 

actually, let me rephrase.

if you have opinions of your own and knowledge and talent, that is what makes you pretty. i could not be bothered about what colour or style your hair is, how fair your skin is, how skinny you are, or how many freckles you have. 

and if i could tell you you are pretty, without you thinking i’m some weirdo lesbo, i would because you are. pretty. 

P/s: do not think members of the opposite sex have been exempted. you will be my next target.

Too Much Twilight III: 

- when a 2005 blogpost from your blog has the word inobservant, and you remember Edward calling Bella that. 

- when you realise you know 2 Bellas (one of which is actually Isabella), 1 Edward, 1 Jacob, 1 Alice, 4 Sams, 2 Emilys, 2 Jessicas, 1 Mike, 1 Eric, 1 Charlie, 2 Sue, 1 Colin - no Carlisles, no Esmes, no Emmetts, no Rosalies, no Jaspers, no Quils, no Embrys, no Seths, no Leahs, no Renees, no Nessies, yet. 

- when you see a black cloak and think Volturi. 

- when you see a sports car and think Cullens. 

- when at the dvd shop, you see a movie starring Carlyle and think “that is NOT how you spell Carlisle”. 

- when you used to be a Grey’s Anatomy fan and called Elizabeth Reaser - Jane Doe/Ava, only to change your tune after you read twilight. you now watch Grey’s Anatomy and call her Esme. 

- when people ask how are you, you think about twilight and can confidently say “i’m doing good, thanks”. 

- when your bestie asks if there are any hot new songs and you have to look thru your playlist, only to realise that you have not downloaded ANY non-twilight songs since you read twilight. 

- when you spend a lot of your nights reading twilight news, twilight articles, twilight magazine-scans; looking for twilight pics, and watching twilight videos. 

- when you youtube ONLY twilight videos, and favourite almost every one of them. 

- when watching the trailers over and over again can turn a bad day good. 

- when the only news you are interested in and dates that are important to you these days are all twilight-related. 

i’m glad i don’t have a new year’s resolution for 2008. 

because 2008 is near it’s end. 

and i haven’t done anything. 

also because if i did have a resolution, add that to my current depression, i’d be suicidal. 

so, yeah… i’m glad. 

there are some things i’d like to do before 2010 rolls in though. 

ok, come to think of it. it’s just one thing. 

LIVE ON MY OWN. 

no need to be under my own roof or anything like that. just pay rent and bills (bills are inevitable), decide how i want my furniture, decide how i want to arrange my stuff around the house, keep the house clean, put/stock whatever and only whatever i want in the refrigerator, have guests or friends over anytime i like, mess around in the kitchen and eventually learn to cook… 

i’m thinking about the ‘on my own’ part of that wish, because i don’t exactly want to be a loner or a hermit or anything like that. but having someone live with me would mean half my decisions, half my wants… 

such nice pictures, right? i’m sure if i google some more i’ll find even nicer ones… but i won’t go and add to my depression. 

-end of post- 

*shock* well, whaddya know… i can blog about something other than twilight *shock*